Hey pplz!!! Ish like 11:30 and I'm still so freaking tired I didn't go to sleep till like 2 in the morning cuz my cuzins Peter and Khanh were at my house and my uncle was drunk. My younger cuzin Chirstopher was all hyper and made us play with him.  Then he asked me why I didn't take him to Knotts and made me promise to take him next time I go.  Then Khanh got mad cuz my uncle was drunk.  That was the first time that I saw him mad it was almost like a silent scream. 

When we all went to Knotts had a lil less fun than I expected.  This year my group was Carmina Correa, Thomas Van, Teresa Nguyen, Loc Do and my two cuzins.  We went on Ghostrider and durning the twists and turns Thomas was all like SHAKE MY HAND!!! SHAKE MY HAND!!! Afterwards we went on Big Foot Rapids I got completely wet from head to toe.  Then I went on sum more rides.  For lunch we went to McDonalds me and Carmina went and played our signature game House of the Dead.  Khanh and Peter kept baggin on my games saying I was really bad and all I don't usually play games I'm not a so called *GAMER* the only thing that interests me is books lots and lots of books.  By the end of the day it got really really boring I just wanted to leave the group and head out on my own.  At six me, Carmina and my cuzins took off.  Me and Carmina went line dancing while Peter and Khanh just watched. I had sum Saspirilla and a huge ass pickle at 10 me and my cuzins went home we didn't even go on that new ride Silver Bullet I wanted to go so freakin bad but, oh well u never get want.

Lately I been feeling a sense of loss and yesterday made it clear I was lost.  I used to think I know who I was, the group I went to Knotts with was really nice, but for some reason I couldn't be my true self I had to put make myself something I'm not I guess Teresa and Carmina are gonna think differently of me from now on.  The fact is I was so sure that I knew who I was but ever since yesterday I became unsure. I have lost my sense of love and become cold. I guess u could say I have became insecure I gotta find that one person who would understand whut I'm going though.